good morning pumpkins!!! let's all have a great day. The sun is shining and i'm thankful that i'm healthy and have people who care about me.
I caught myself lately being always clumsy and disturbed and yelling almost all the time. I promised myself that from now on i'll take a moment and breath, think before i act. Think positive. Don't doubt everything. Give a shot to good intentions. I was suspicious against everything. I have to stop doing that. I poison my life for no reason. Today i'll pay my bills first and take a walk around, look windows and shop (if i can afford). My birthday was last Saturday. I'm happy because i had unexpected wish calls and gifts. I adore small gifts, like a flower, a chocolate, a scarf... they are priceless.
I'm here and i became 38; 38 years of happy memories and pain. With success and failure going hand by hand, dissapointment and anticipation knocking on my door. But i'm grateful for being who i've become. Other times strong, others weak. A fairy and a bitch.
Random thoughts on my birthday:
- i can't resist chocolate
- i want authencity in life, i hate fake people, even when it comes to disliking me
- i miss my ability to stay up really late and jog long distances
- manicures and peticures make me feel "woman"
- i can't stand unfairness
- losing friends kills me
- i envy perfect female bodies and women that metabolise everything whilst i have to count calories
- i wish i had more yoga students
- i miss being a kid and play football
- i ate too much birthday cake
- i feel better/more strong than last year
- i can't resist to buy bags and shoes
- i have to save money
- I need a life insurance quickly
- i need to learn to cook more recipes
- i want to visit NY, Paris and Berlin (again)
- my mind should stop stucking on older feelings and situations
- i need more meditation times
- i love being madly in love
- Thank you guys for loving me
- ....i need to change my hair colour and have a haircut
- i love Duckie, he makes me happy
- the heart is the most important piece in human body
xoxo. i'll be back soon
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