Hi pumpkins, i have missed you sooo much.. I have missed the positive energy i get when i write to you... a lot of things are changing in my life lately. I have started yoga after a long time i had stopped, i have started teaching english, finished a semester in my MSc Studies in German literature and i'm getting a divorce. That's the most shaky expierience of the all i've been through lately. it was not a forced decision, i have throught it a lot and i decided that i shouldn't keep us both trapped. I should give us both a chance to become happy, because we weren't. I'll get used to my new life. Here comes my morning surfing to the internet.. everyone could be a good runner, life at 40, adorable art, yoga asanas to relief neck, are you the woman you wanted to be?
I got to go now... Duty calls, back to work.. Have a great day...love you...
23 October 2015
hi pumpkins. Much happened since the last time i had written in my blog. I had said i don't need to write anymore but i was wrong. I finally found time to write a few lines again. Writing is a kind of psychotherapy and i have just realised it. So i'll write as often as possible. I have finished studying german literature and i keep on to a master degree on literature. Studying keeps my mind young. I love that. Last year i got a lesson on relationships and friendships. Life brought such situations that the real friends are the one that are left in my life. There are always people that take advantage of us. And we call them friends because we can't directly recognise the "friend" mask they're wearing. But here comes the time, when masks collapse and people reveal their true self. It pains, but it also brings relief. I also met some interesting people. Few of my teachers became my friends and i'm honored.
I was a gym addict. I am no more. I set other priorities. I even changed some habbits. I got a bad one, i smoke. Rarely but i do. I set the goal of quitting it. I need to start running again. That will help me to quit smoking.
I need to change my job, i need a new professional environment. I need more teaching. poverty is increasing around us. I need to give, love, knowledge, strength. Who could imagine, what was coming. The ugly economical situation in Greece, coming refuges, reminded us what human means, what really matters. That we could be in their shoes from one day to another and lose everything. That is terrifying. I wish things were only getting better. I really pray for that. We need to hold on hope.
Here are some interesting articles i found on the internet:
good morning lovelies.. what are you up to? i'm in an autumn mood.. a bit melancholic, in the mood of love and hope.. i plan my schedule... i hear my favourite radio, i had my hair cut eventually..
i believe that when you wish for change, change will find you... i have to start studying again.. time passes... there's so much to be filled in. The coming week has a lot of literature meetings i plan to attend. Margaret Atwood's talk is one of them. The german books i ordered are here, waiting for me to start reading.. among them is the scenario of Good bye Lenin film. Chill nights are also here and i love that.
hi pumpkins... how are you ?? i'm fine.. with a spring allergy but i can make it.. i'm still writing my first essay and i have 3 to go.. i should finish it some time soon. I have a deadline till 14th April.. i did a pause to write to you.. days come and go and i think about German, in German.. i'm completely absorbed by my essays.. But i miss body training.. I don't thonk that the situation will change soon.. Not since 14th of April.. Things i did last week..i went to the cinema and watched:
great Judie.. as always..
i enjoyed sushi with my friend Sophie, this girl is a treasure, went to the theatre, practised yoga and had teaching hours.. my kids move on and that gives me courage..
on Sunday night i drank beers with friends at my favourite place..
how are you today? i'm planning a trip and i have a lot to organise.. at the beginning it was Munich.. Eventually after a lot of cancellations and misslucks i'm travelling to the Greek island of Skyros on a business trip. i needed to leave Athens for a little. i'm quite exhausted lately, with work, teaching and training.. i need to slow down. When i'm coming back a lot of work and studying is waiting for me. I'm leaving tomorrow. But i'll post pictures..
i went to the movies two days ago and watched the film above.. i had a great time with girlfriends, talking, drinking beers at an open cinema, it looks like a garden in fact, like open cinemas at parks in Germany. i love open summer cinemas.......... This movie is about power, money, crisis of ethics.. it made me thinking " where are we heading? i'm afraid to answer... i have a lecture to attend in one hour.. i'll spend weekend with family and friends. Last night i went out with Helen and we met our couch and pilates teacher Greg unexpectantly. i was soo happy seeing and talking to him. He sat in our company for almost an hour.. talking about news and other things.. Serendipity!! The unexpected... the universe do happy tricks from time to time.. and give us happiness..
good morning pumpkins.. thank God good weather has returned, i wish it stayed for long. i made a coffee, sat in my desk and i try to organise my daily routine and duties. I have a lesson at 4 a.m i have to prepare, my notes needs rewriting and there is also office work.. these days my mood fluctuates.. there are moments of calmness and times of melancholy... minutes i need to run away, hide, and others when i want to sozialise, to go out, smile and be around loving ones. This happens for some moments, not hours, not days. There is a coming carneval party next weekend, my gym organises it, that i'm not dying to go. But if i don't, i'll may regret it, like last year.. i think i need some vitamins to strengthen my body and a lot of sleep. i feel exhausted.
A morning parisian sensation of the main theme of the movie Ratatouille. i love this movie.
hi pumpkins, i had a peaceful weekend, i stayed mostly in. It was raining too hard outside. I studied a lot, cleaned the house, baked a tart with marmelade, spoke with friends on the phone, watched a great movie on DVD (see above trailer), i recommend it. i try to control my stress, exams are coming the day after tomorrow. A student of mine is giving exams tomorrow and i'm a little stressed about it too. I'm so happy, i made some shopping on Saturday, mostly teas and biscuits. My mother in law gave me a silver ring of hers, from a past decade today and i love it. It has a blue stone on it, my colour. Thank you soo much.. i had a strange dream the other night. My house was burning...nothing was saved.. i don't know what it means.. it may mean change, or regeneration? does anybody know how to explain it?? HAVE A GREAT WEEK LOVABIES!! P.S yoga poses to help your neck.. my constant pain
how are you feeling today? Friday is one of my favourite days.. i know i'll sleep more the next day... Well the news is; i have two new yoga students.. they became 5 now... but i'll teach them in groups of 2 or 3 people.
i had my first reiki session yesterday. it's an amazing experience, both relaxing and scary.. it's neither exactly massage nor meditation.. it brings feelings on surface... good and bad.. the head eases and fulls of pictures..i wanted to cry at first then i felt like i'm in the middle of a storm.. my teacher said afterwards that my energy needed to balance.. my stomach and body was in a mess i felt trembling and numbness.. but then suddenly i felt better.. relaxed and quiet like i was sleeping for months... the pictures in my head disappeared.. after "waking the body" we discussed about how i felt and what my teacher felt and saw... the teacher sees pictures on the head or something like that during session. Pictures of the past lives of the participant. They've told me things about my past lives... i was coming mostly as a man, a poor, turtured man, always wanted to serve others... as a soldier, as a servant... These pictures explained my back pains, my love for German, yoga.. My purpose of this life is to take care of myself, set myself free for guild and anger. Forgive and stand on my feet. Stop depending on others.. fight my fears...difficult goals.
If you get the chance enjoy a reiki session. It's a unique experience..
Yoga is about paying attention. It's about living in the present moment through breath and foundation. Often we want to skip past the basics and get right to the fancy stuff but trust me, you need to grow roots first. One of my favourite Iyengar quotations is,
"Our minds are in many pieces and our bodies are in one piece and we want our mind in one piece and our body in many pieces."
I'm learning that this takes time and practice. We have years of conditioning behind us and if we want to make changes we have to begin to practice acceptance and patience. Maya Yoga has taught me how to have a personal practice so that I can work on the postures that will free my body and mind from all kinds of limitations.
I have learned over the last few years that there is so much to learn and I never want to stop learning -- about myself, my practice, others, this world. I've also learned it's just as important to be able to let go of everything I think I am, know, feel, own. I've learned we are better off when we can support one another instead of tear each other down. I've learned I have to be patient with my body but I have to move past fears.
I am reminded, again, that yoga teaches us on and off the mat. There are various systems and styles of yoga these days but there is one thing that hasn't changed -- the wisdom in the tradition of yoga is deep and stable and available to anyone who's honest with themselves and willing do the work. Integrating what you learn in class into everyday life is the real work. And this work is a life-long journey; it never ends.
i read the article below and it reminded me of my situation. I wish i were flexible in yoga, but i'm not. my muscles are so tight because of the weight lifting all these years at the gym, that i keep on working on that and i have a long way to go, although i feel better. If i practised more often i would have been better.
Remember try not to be hard on yourself. Focus, give your best shot but don't be too strict.
The other day after teaching a yoga class, one of my students came up to
me and asked how long it would take to get flexible. I thought it was
the best questions ever and something worth talking about.
My answer was simple. I told him I wasn't sure -- I was still waiting. Maybe in 50 years?
That answer wasn't meant to discourage but instead to stress the
importance of taking the focus off the competition, off the getting
"better", off the drive we have in this society to focus on the end
instead of the journey.
I guess I could joke a little about it with him because I get it, I'm
not a flexible person, I'm strong. My muscle tissue is tight and though I
have been practicing for 15 years, more or less, I am still working on
my flexibility. It has definitely improved but it is my life-long
homework.
I've had to accept that opening happens over time, opening of our
physical, mental, and emotional bodies. We can look at Yoga Sutra 1.14
for inspiration:
Sa Tu Dirgha Kala Nairantarya Satkarasevito Dridha Bhumih
In Sanskrit this is saying, step by step we find our way. Our yoga
practice becomes firmly grounded when it has been practiced for a long
time with sincere effort.
So instead of focusing on getting more flexible as soon as possible, go
into yoga class, do the best you can do that day, soak in the
information you can soak in that day, and let go of where you think you
should be. Be okay with where you are right now. Only when you can
accept where you are right now can you move forward. And be okay moving
forward once inch at a time.
I remind myself of this every time I step on the mat.
